Expanding Our Crazy Big Family by TWO

First of all I want to say thank you for each and everyone that takes the time to stop by my blog. I am not sure how in detailed anyone reads my lengthy journal posts but if anyone has been following my blog then you have caught on that I have given details here and there about our current adoption process. Though I have not given too many details, I have given some through journal posts as well as by way of social media. A few day earlier with a possible match and some research into our current home study, it rests heavy on my heart to share more in depth our journey.

So let me take you back to the beginning of our new hopeful journey through private domestic adoption. Last April 2017, my hubby and I discussed extensively adding to our family again, not by one but by two. Thus because as I have said in prior posts, I do not love or think odd numbers are great nor do they work in the universe. Hence TWO! So we discussed together, as a family, faithfully prayed then reached out to an adoption consultant that came by way of referral but also just happened to start popping up in my social media news feed (maybe it is true social media knows what we are thinking..lol) No really, I truly do not think there are coincidences but subtle hints of things to come as there are reasons for everything in life. After many weeks of pondering, watching many posts, praying; I made contact. Lengthy one at that.

May 2017, I had our phone interview and spilled our life story. Not to forget the main reason, our reason of wanting to adopt TWO! Twins and how adamant I was that God had a plan for our family. Little did I know at the time, our journey was going to take us on a path that we would ever come to fathom. As we understood over the years adoption through the foster care system, we began to quickly learn the differences on the domestic side of things. Though we had an approved home study through our county, it was not the right home study. Therefore, we needed a new one, a correct one. As we searched via the internet a for an agency, a friend of mine, gave a referral to a local company. I made contact again. Thus, spilling our life story and our specific intentions of adopting two. Finally I felt we were on the right track, adoption consultant on board and new home study started and all going as planned. Well let me just say, after six months almost to the day from the day we made contact with the home study agency, we were informed that they could not finish due to an internal policy that nobody decided catch along with being told our social worker was inexperience though she had been in the field for fifteen plus years. Needless to say, they could not give anything in writing to support their decision. However they did provide a letter to refund our money but lets just say we are still waiting for our money.

So here the holidays are in full swing and we are back to the beginning in January 2018. Me being me, found a local company, again very upfront with our situation and here we go again, application for a new home started. All the while, props to our adoption consultant as their entire team stuck it out with us. Prayed for us, listened to me when I just needed to vent through whatever mounds of duplicate paperwork we needed to complete. Plus just their patience in the process that ended up being a little over fifteen months for us to become active with their consulting agency from the first day I made contact.

Now that we are in the active stage with a very specific home study but truly did not find out how specific until a few days ago when we had a possible match of “one”. We are hopeful to adopt two, we went into this hopeful to adopt Twins. Knowing that it is not always the plan; Twins not always easy to come by and if God had it in our path then it will be. However it was discussed that if Twins were not an option then it may be possible to do a back to back adoption as that may be a possibility. As we have been very open about wanting to adoption Twins, we would be just was open about the back-to-back adoption as well. We wrote a letter again; a synopsis of our life story and our intentions for adoption. Well as a possible match came, it made me question our home study thus we found that a back-to-back adoption is not as easy as we thought. Therefore, I came full forward again that EVERYTHING happens for a reason and we cannot force anything. We came into this process with a specific intention. TWINS! One that I saw clearly, I cannot change the rules as my husband says. We believe Twins will be a part of our family and our path of life. Since becoming active, we have been presented with thirty-four cases. Cases, expectant mothers, fathers and babies, that we prayed over everyone involved, some said yes to, some said no to but not one has been our Yes…our two yes’ are still out there!

“I prayed for this child/children” – Samuel 1:27

As much as I can say it has been an emotional roller coaster plus I am sure hardly nothing to what an expectant mother and/or father is and will be going through but I know all in all our little blessings (two) have not set forth on our path. Still firmly believing our Twins will make their way into our family. I fully understand that with adoption comes brokenness, sadness but also hopefulness, joy and a great love for one another. There is no easy answer in the adoption world, it is easy turn a blind eye to so many things but that is not a true picture of reality. Adoption is bittersweet and a true love all wrapped up in one.

“Adoption has the dimension of connection — not only to your own tribe, but beyond, widening the scope of what constitutes love, ties and family. It is a larger embrace. By adopting, we stretch past our immediate circles and, by reaching out, find an unexpected sense of belonging with others.” Isabella Rossellini

Until then our big crazy family will be waiting for the next TWO to make their arrival to further share and be a part of our love, laughter, adventures and day to day craziness.



Until Next Time…Make it a Great Day

xoxo Julie

Our New Season – Home School

I write today with a feeling that a weight has been lifted off my shoulders but I really know that somewhere in the upcoming months the weight of my decision for our Littles to home school this new school year has only just begun. Whether good or not so good, it will be a Life Adventure that we will be doing together, head on, as a family. Got to say..nothing is better than that!

Let me take you back a bit, our Littles had a really rough year last year with our school district. Things happened that no one should have experienced let alone anyone under the age of five thus causing a non-stop dealing with the school district, teachers and aides. Adding to our already crazy daily life of every thing under the sun. I have to Blog school busadmit, I was very proud of myself as I was able to graciously advocate for my children and finish their year in the positive. However, it left me with this never-ending pit in my stomach. A constant questioning of what if’s for this year to come.

As our Littles each have Individualized Educational Plans (IEP’s), I knew somewhat how the upcoming year would look like, what each class would likely be, for the most part who was in what program and who was going to have what teachers. Getting right down to it, we live in a great school district. We moved specifically to be in this district along with our housing track to be within the zones of certain schools. We already have had three children graduate through this district with one of them utilizing additional services. So, really what is boils down to is that I lost faith and trust of the overall school system over the issues that happened last year. Now, not sure how to get that back.

Our children could have the best teachers this upcoming year, the programs could be the best but when you have witnessed issues and/or have proof of the happenings there is an internal inside battle almost like a real-time movie constantly on replay.

I began to tell myself, my daily stomach ache, would just go Blog Crazinessaway. However now that the new school year is fast approaching my “so-called” stomach ache really is not and my anxiety is through the roof. I gave myself a date to make hard decision and I DID!

I know I cannot control everything but I know that I can take minute by minute, day by day. Whereas, if I did not try to do what I felt was BEST for our children and to further feed what I knew was in my heart…I failed as their mother, caregiver, protector. So, in short, Home School here we come!

Blog HomeschoolingWe already have a busy schedule but life sometimes throws us curve balls or there comes a time where there is a fork in the road where the paths that we see are not always smooth and straight. Remembering the road with the most bumps and less traveled, sometimes has the best surprises!

Plus, I am lucky to have many friends in our life who home school to ask questions, to learn from, to lean on and just listen to me ramble. As I said before, I believe everything happens for a reason and God has a timing for everything.

Life is not perfect but knowing our children will be safe and will not be in the mindset they were last year is worth every moment of chaos for the time being. Right now, I do not have the right answer, needless to say I do know I can say home schooling maybe just a season or maybe it is meant for their entire school career. Nonetheless, I do know for a fact it is a minute by minute, a day by day routine. Honestly, that is all I can ask for from each one of them and from myself.  GOD BLESS

“We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face…we must do that which we think we cannot.” – Eleanor Roosevelt

Until Next Time….Make it a Great Day!



A Stay-Cation from Our Vacation

Coming home after being on a family vacation for the last ten days, I am allowed to say that I could really use a stay-cation from our vacation. I am not kidding when I say that. Having CRPS as much as I push through things, put a smile on, there are times that I just want to lay in bed and sleep.

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This is one of those times. I know that flare ups come and go needless to say I will still push through but thankful for the support system we have put in place to allow in case of emergencies, for added help to be there at a moment’s notice.

Thus, trying to get back into our normal routine is not so great. Twenty-four hours back but being three hours ahead that our bodies are still not on the same clock. Not so funny! I really should have thought about cancelling therapy services until next week because honestly nobody wants to do anything right at this moment including me except lounge around and sleep. I think we should be able too…who really wants to unpack – to count 6 pieces of luggage for that matter. I am still in vacation mode and so are our Littles. Plus, the fact it is summer break…they are in vacation mode, pool mode, whatever mode you can think of and rightfully so!

All said and done, we did have an exceptional vacation. Many memories made. Many stories to be told for years to come and no need to say more as we wrapped up on our trip home.

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As I have said before I never want to be the one that finds anyone of us via social media by way of someone’s cellular video phone due to a situation that I could not handle on the air flight. As we have seen many viral videos tend not to do anyone any justice.

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However, our flight home was very eventful with one of our littles spiking a very high fever approximately an hour into our flight (due to an ear infection) thus needing inflight medical assistance. Once our little was quickly attended too shortly thereafter another passenger on board had a major medical issue which was quickly attended to as well.

I cannot say how much the entire flight crew was on top of everything, how compassionate each were and how each one went over and beyond the scope of their job along with the two passengers that had medical training who were nothing more than saints. Everything happens for a reason and we are truly grateful and blessed to be on the flight we were.

Even more so, I am thankful for these Peeps, The Big Island of Peace and Tranquility which has been stowed upon us All…GOD BLESS!

“A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step.” – Lao Tzu

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Taking a Family Adventure with Littles

Currently a large family of ten, we tend to find ways to spend our free time doing a day trip with family or a weekend trip here and there. The reality of it travelling with five littles who have differentBlog Beach special needs make travelling somewhat an adventure to say the least.

However, a couple of years ago during spring break we spent a three-day weekend at the beach. A place that all our children love.  Who doesn’t, right? Funny thing, I really do not like the sand, but I tolerate it and seeing how much joy it brings everyone, is totally worth it. Upon our return home, I happened to answer a telephone call which low and be hold was a sales call from a major hotel vacation chain. Instead of doing what I usually do by asking the caller to place our number on a “do not call list” I listened to the pitch. They made us an offered to vacation for 6 days 5 nights in Hawaii for a fee that was less than two months of car payments not including air fare and we had a year to plan. After thinking about it for a few minutes; for some crazy reason I said YES!

Think about it, where would a family of ten be able to go for that kind of money let alone Hawaii…..so we started planning. Watched for airfares (yes I found great rates). I know what your thinking…yes, the trip came with some restrictions. We had to listen to a presentation at some point in our trip and we did. Other than that, we made memories to last a lifetime.  We still speak of that trip and look at varies pictures often.

Now, here wereBlog Hawaii are again a couple of years later where about a year ago; planned a trip back to Hawaii for a couple of reasons. Now it is not just the ten of us going, it is fourteen. (we have added a few) We are celebrating a graduation, birthdays and that fact that my husband rarely takes time away from work so this trip is much-needed. To be tourists, to see the sights that we were not able to see that last time we were there, to cherish the time that we are together, to laugh, to eat whatever, to be adventurous and to just decompress from reality for a period of time.

Just to Be!

Looking back at our last trip, I worried about the flights with the littles. Their needs and being over stimulated. My sanity! The sanity of Others! You hear all the horror stories of in-flight issues with children. The last thing I wanted was to be the one on the viral video all over YouTube. Nevertheless, I was fully prepared with everything; tablets, headphones, snacks, bottles, diapers, wipes, sippy cups, toys, WiFi, you name I had and only one had an issue. One little has a seizure but as much as I think we have it under control that situation we cannot. In the end, no viral video.

Now as I am coming up on our trip, I worry about the same issues. I understand my children but I also respect everyone around me. So, I am gearing up again. With everyone a couple of years older, needs somewhat the same but different. I think I may need new criteria to add to the bags. This time we opted for one straight flight, no Blog Familyconnecting flights, no just making it to the next flight with minutes to spare because one little waited to the last minute for a restroom break. Somehow they just do not understand airplanes do not wait for restroom breaks.

For all who travel with children, one or multiples, the novice or experts…as I think I have it pretty much figured out, I am always looking or researching for ideas. Currently my big issue is the car seat. I know that it is not required but I feel it would be so beneficial for our two-year to sit in one during the flight. So if you have any information, please let me know, would love to hear your thoughts and experiences. Learning something new each day is wonderful. GOD BLESS

  • “Life is either a great adventure or nothing.”  Helen Keller

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